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As of today, the Jimmy B house has successfully housed it’s first resident for an entire month.  This is an all time record for me for helping out women transitioning out of prison or jail.  Not that I’ve given it a go more than a few times before, when I was renting and decided it wasn’t a good thing to put a house that wasn’t mine at risk like that.

I have a contract now, and might use it for the next potential person, who is making her way out of transitional housing and may visit the house this week, but I am not familiar with her story yet beyond that.  In the contract, which seems to be a working document that I change as I go, there is a disclaimer that if anything should happen, I will move my mom in, they can be released from the contract.  There is still so much unknown on that front, but time will take care of all of that.

The ever persistent message from my Lord is to trust Him with all of it.  I’m reading a series by Beth Moore with one of the ladies in the prison I visit, and it’s on the Psalms of Ascent, (120-134.)  You read and pray though 1 every 2 days.  He is speaking so clearly to me that my entire perspective is inside out or upside down or some sort of off that is entirely contrary to reality.

Every time I pray “They Kingdom Come” it is happening.  As time passes this place is getting closer and closer to the Messiah’s return.  I tend to think things are getting worse as worse, yet, when I reflect on my entire life, Gd has only been making it better and better.  He is a good Gd, working all things for the best.  It took me way too long to get here, but somewhere, not just in my mind, but deep in my heart I am actually starting to believe in His goodness.  It’s tiny but it keeps sprouting.  It’s like, most of the time my thought life is wrong and then I get reminded and its a mini flood in my heart.  As in heaven is real time true on this earth.

I’ve always been hung up on the when, or being wrong and then throwing out the idea.  There is a part of me that wants to say it’s happening in my house now because circumstantially things are going well, but that’s not it at all.  The biggest victory is within my own heart, and maybe for awhile that’s the only one I can be sure of, but I choose to believe, despite anything I think, feel, suspect, ponder, or see, that the better is active and at work.

To be continued….

 

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